0 My Desire which has given its root now

I always wished to become someone who has been recognized by everyone. Of course, this is everyone's dream and wish. But I do not know whether it will happen or not. Just wanna give a try.. may be a step ahead.

I remember that It was during my Eighth standard. I scribbled something. Actually, I tried to write some "Kavithai" (I don't want to mention in English as poetry doesn't have the beauty when compare to kavithai).

But it doesn't work during those days. Now, that's today.. I got a spark!! I took my official diary (which was near to me) and pen down the things. Its actually a song, butI didn't know anything about music. But I was able to give a tune to the lyrics which I have written. I'm impressed. I will update that soon.

0 Do friends have something to do with our desires?

Of course, They are our strengths. They are our weaknesses. I love my friends and desired to have lots of friends. But this is more than desiring.. Wanting.. Need.. Everything. I used to have lots of friends even during my childhood but none of them stayed with me. That is my bad luck. I used to fight with my mom supporting my friends. But, later I felt that I was mad about friends and tried not to do such things again. During my fourth std, I had two close friends. We used to wonder about the three stars lined in the sky. We used to compare them with us. I have wondered for years.. On seeing the stars. Those three stars stayed in the same line for years. Whenever I look at those stars I used to say to my mind that three is my lucky number. It fixed in my mind. Then, during my Eighth standard I got two dear friends again. Even they were with me till the end of my schooling. Then, they were in my friends' list but not dear ones or close ones. I was always desiring for a friend, who should always be with me, fight with me, kill me, hurt me and then should say I miss u idiot. I got one. With my friend I desired a lot like happiness to heaven, fights to hell, lots and lots of sharing, possessiveness, a good company and lot more. The first and the best one was ' a lifelong friendship' which did not happen and for which I'm longing for months. Friends are always episodes. But my friend is one who filled all those episodes alone.

My longing desire!
My best buddy ever!

0 What I have got from my desires

What do you think that you will get from desiring something or liking something or loving something.. may be someone.. They all have the same results. Just tears and nothing other than that. Even I got the same results. Have you ever felt this sort of pain? Feeling of piercing some sharp weapon in your heart. You can feel this sort of pain only if you really love a person. Yes, I was in love and I am in love. Wondering How long I will be in love. Because we cannot predict our future. Do you think loving someone is desire? Or do you feel like I'm scribbling here? May be you can have such feeling. I will give you the answer for it. The next step of love is marriage as everyone knows. After love, I desired to get married to the person whom I love a lot. There arises all the problems and I still struggling with that. So what I am about to say is think before you desire. Or if its late or if you have desired it by this time, be ready for the results.!!